Maybe Hermione and me could just go off shopping or something without telling anyone and see how weird they get about it. To see if we could just sort of go whenever.

Sometimes they care a lot, and sometimes it's like they forget I'm there.

And when they care, it's that I'm doing what they want me to do. They don't care about me, I mean, not what I think or anything. Or what I want. But sometimes it's like He Voldemort just sort of wants me to do something like with Madame Umbridge, and the Tournament, and the ceremony at the end of last term, and it's like all of a sudden I'm the most important thing and no matter what I do, someone's going to get hurt.

But then when Mr Selwyn was killed, it was like I was just there for no reason. Just there to watch. And I don't know when he'll decide to remember I'm around and that I've got to do something, or what it'll be, and it's sort of

I don't know.