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alt_sirius) wrote2014-05-20 09:50 pm
alt_sirius) wrote2014-05-20 09:50 pm
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How are you doing, then? Not sure whether I should call your attention to the date, or not.
If you've let it pass without realising, don't feel guilty about that. If you're mourning him or wondering if we'll ever know what happened, don't let grief consume you.
He made his choices, just as we've done. Perhaps he'd have changed his path if he had it to do again. But there are things that wouldn't have changed. He wouldn't have come as far as you've come, or as far as Draco's come. He wouldn't have revised his opinions about muggleborns or other races besides wizards. He wouldn't have been inclined to risk himself time and time again for something more important than his own life, or his family or - anything like that. Maybe you don't care about whether he could have been brave, I don't know.
It doesn't make missing him wrong. It doesn't make his death any easier, either. But he'd be the first to remind you not to dishonour that memory by turning him into a hero, when he wasn't.
Anyway. I wanted you to know I'm thinking about him. And if you are, too, that's .... He'd have liked that.
If you've let it pass without realising, don't feel guilty about that. If you're mourning him or wondering if we'll ever know what happened, don't let grief consume you.
He made his choices, just as we've done. Perhaps he'd have changed his path if he had it to do again. But there are things that wouldn't have changed. He wouldn't have come as far as you've come, or as far as Draco's come. He wouldn't have revised his opinions about muggleborns or other races besides wizards. He wouldn't have been inclined to risk himself time and time again for something more important than his own life, or his family or - anything like that. Maybe you don't care about whether he could have been brave, I don't know.
It doesn't make missing him wrong. It doesn't make his death any easier, either. But he'd be the first to remind you not to dishonour that memory by turning him into a hero, when he wasn't.
Anyway. I wanted you to know I'm thinking about him. And if you are, too, that's .... He'd have liked that.
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It's
It helps. To know we're both thinking about him. Thank you.
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He wasn't a hero.
And he wouldn't have been.
Sometimes I think about what it would have been like to fight against him and I'm glad he's dead.
And sometimes I worry that He'll take Draco and Hydra and twist them around into something awful and broken and sad and I
I'm sorry.
Apparently, I'm in a bit of a mood.