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alt_siriusFeeling any better this morning?
Wish I were. Nothing to do with Terrie, mind. I've been watching her place since yesterday. I think I will send her an owl, just to see what she does with it.
Now that I have an owl to send, that is.
See. One found me this morning. And I --
It's the Parkinson girl. I'm not sure where she got the notion that I'm not dead. I don't want Molly or Poppy to see, in case Ron Weasley caught wind of something at home. (I know he and Miss Parkinson are mates, improbable as that sounds, so it's possible if he overheard Molly and Arthur, he might have said something to Pansy.) And Poppy ... well, she'd start shrieking about it being an elabourate trap of Malfoy's or something.
Which I don't think is the idea at all. I'm quite sure that if she were acting on Malfoy's orders she wouldn't have said she thinks Reg is still alive - and with me, no less.
Circe, the safest thing is not to answer at all. I know that.
But there's something disingenuous about that, I suppose. Something that smacks of not playing fair - like ... if she's found the courage to write, she ought to get an answer. And I hate the thought of her pining after Reg, even if there's something vaguely discomfiting about their connection. I mean, I don't know any more than she does, do I? But someone ought to at least tell her to get on, let him go. And, I suppose it's an opportunity to tell the truth, so far as I do know it.
I dunno. I guess it's nothing that has to be answered today, or even tomorrow. I'll use this owl to write to Terrie so I can gauge her reaction and whether it's safe to make contact. Let this sit for a while.
But ... what do you think?
Wish I were. Nothing to do with Terrie, mind. I've been watching her place since yesterday. I think I will send her an owl, just to see what she does with it.
Now that I have an owl to send, that is.
See. One found me this morning. And I --
It's the Parkinson girl. I'm not sure where she got the notion that I'm not dead. I don't want Molly or Poppy to see, in case Ron Weasley caught wind of something at home. (I know he and Miss Parkinson are mates, improbable as that sounds, so it's possible if he overheard Molly and Arthur, he might have said something to Pansy.) And Poppy ... well, she'd start shrieking about it being an elabourate trap of Malfoy's or something.
Which I don't think is the idea at all. I'm quite sure that if she were acting on Malfoy's orders she wouldn't have said she thinks Reg is still alive - and with me, no less.
Circe, the safest thing is not to answer at all. I know that.
But there's something disingenuous about that, I suppose. Something that smacks of not playing fair - like ... if she's found the courage to write, she ought to get an answer. And I hate the thought of her pining after Reg, even if there's something vaguely discomfiting about their connection. I mean, I don't know any more than she does, do I? But someone ought to at least tell her to get on, let him go. And, I suppose it's an opportunity to tell the truth, so far as I do know it.
I dunno. I guess it's nothing that has to be answered today, or even tomorrow. I'll use this owl to write to Terrie so I can gauge her reaction and whether it's safe to make contact. Let this sit for a while.
But ... what do you think?
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Date: 2010-09-02 08:10 pm (UTC)There are an awful lot of things to sort through, for certain. First of all, whether she's just acting on rumour or hope, or if she knows something more solid. I don't suppose she gave any specifics about what she knows and how, did she? I mean, there are rumours enough going round, and that might be where she got the idea from, but if Lucius Malfoy does know something we don't and that's where she got it from, that's worrisome.
And second, I'm sorry to hear she is having trouble moving on from Regulus's death, but it's not surprising -- his body was never found, so there was little resolution on the matter, and I can see how she'd make the connection.
I don't think your cover is worth her peace of mind. It really is the most valuable thing you have going for you right now, and the longer you are able to hold onto it, the better. The letter to Terrie Spinnet is different of course, because that door has already been opened.
I don't suppose you've gotten any other letters? I can honestly say I'm surprised that someone else hasn't tried it out on a whim until now. I'd also check any owls you receive for tracking charms, just in case.
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Date: 2010-09-02 08:54 pm (UTC)I don't get the impression she really expects an answer. It just seems cruel to leave her hanging. I'm not used to how little girls think, though - is it as cruel as I think it is?
As for other letters ... well, there were a few, right after the announcement went round that I was dead. Some of them were only good for burning, if you follow me. And yes, I've left them unanswered - though I guess they had their reply when the owls came back empty-clawed.
But this one feels different. (For one thing, she's nicked my records and claims them as her own.) I dunno. I guess I'm just trying to convince myself there's a good reason to answer. And you're right. There really is none.
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Date: 2010-09-02 09:43 pm (UTC)I wouldn't call it cruel. You're not doing it to be mean, or needlessly leading her on. She'll take the lack of an answer as an answer of sorts, and that's not going to hurt her any more than her own imagination can supply.
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Date: 2010-09-02 09:10 pm (UTC)Frank's been working up a "welcome to Gryffindor" letter for Evelyn, and he couldn't be prouder. And things seem to be going back to normal, at least for the time being, which is a relief.