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Jun. 16th, 2009 08:05 pmKingsley, I owe you an apology. I realise that most of you don't remember Peter and you don't know exactly what happened just before Lily and James were killed, how they went into hiding.
The fact of the matter is, all this time, I've thought Remus was the traitor, Remus was the one who betrayed them to Voldemort. You all know that. But it wasn't him at all. It was Peter.
I'm still not sure how it happened, though. Frank, you said he looked smug. That just doesn't sound right. I'm sure if he was the one who told Voldemort where to find James and Lily, it was under duress. Not that it's any excuse. He should have died rather than betray them, the rat.
I just wish I'd known the truth then, or it all might be different now. Dumbledore's one of the only people who know that we tried to protect James, Lily and Harry with the Fidelius, and that I was to be their secret-keeper. At the last moment - just two days after that memory you saw of Remus and Peter in the pub - I convinced James to switch it to Peter. We thought it was brilliantly clever. No one would ever suspect that we'd make Peter our secret keeper. I mean, first off, everyone knew how thick James and I were. But beyond that ... well, you saw him yourself, Kingsley, and Frank, you knew him, at least a little, through the Order. Peter was aces with a lot of things, like forgery, munitions and diversionary tactics, but a dab hand at duelling he never was.
Well, we switched, all right. Peter even convinced me not to tell Remus about the change of plans. If what he told Remus in the pub was really of his own volition, it's because he was trying to keep us from trusting each other to shift suspicion off himself. But ... I still don't know why he did it. Voldemort must have got to him somehow, that's the only explanation. He might even have been under Imperius. And of course we'll never know his real reasons, will we?
So it seems I've been a perfect arse to Remus all this time for no reason, and I've thought Peter a tragic martyr on behalf of our friends, when it's Remus who's been unjustly treated. I should never have snarled at you, Kingsley, for speaking ill of Peter. I should have guessed it all along, in fact.
Now I only wish we had the chance to face him again; I'd kill him with my bare hands if I could.
The fact of the matter is, all this time, I've thought Remus was the traitor, Remus was the one who betrayed them to Voldemort. You all know that. But it wasn't him at all. It was Peter.
I'm still not sure how it happened, though. Frank, you said he looked smug. That just doesn't sound right. I'm sure if he was the one who told Voldemort where to find James and Lily, it was under duress. Not that it's any excuse. He should have died rather than betray them, the rat.
I just wish I'd known the truth then, or it all might be different now. Dumbledore's one of the only people who know that we tried to protect James, Lily and Harry with the Fidelius, and that I was to be their secret-keeper. At the last moment - just two days after that memory you saw of Remus and Peter in the pub - I convinced James to switch it to Peter. We thought it was brilliantly clever. No one would ever suspect that we'd make Peter our secret keeper. I mean, first off, everyone knew how thick James and I were. But beyond that ... well, you saw him yourself, Kingsley, and Frank, you knew him, at least a little, through the Order. Peter was aces with a lot of things, like forgery, munitions and diversionary tactics, but a dab hand at duelling he never was.
Well, we switched, all right. Peter even convinced me not to tell Remus about the change of plans. If what he told Remus in the pub was really of his own volition, it's because he was trying to keep us from trusting each other to shift suspicion off himself. But ... I still don't know why he did it. Voldemort must have got to him somehow, that's the only explanation. He might even have been under Imperius. And of course we'll never know his real reasons, will we?
So it seems I've been a perfect arse to Remus all this time for no reason, and I've thought Peter a tragic martyr on behalf of our friends, when it's Remus who's been unjustly treated. I should never have snarled at you, Kingsley, for speaking ill of Peter. I should have guessed it all along, in fact.
Now I only wish we had the chance to face him again; I'd kill him with my bare hands if I could.
