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Nov. 23rd, 2011 12:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_siriusIt's probably a bit late in asking, but: Are you sure? Because we've talked a bit (yes, there was time for talking) and neither of us wants you to feel uncomfortable with the arrangement.
And I hope you know I'd never have - I mean to say, I never thought I had a chance, anyway, but I never would have forgiven myself if I'd let my feelings come between you two.
I'd just said to him last night, I wish we could all be a proper family. Him and me and Harry and even Hermione and Terry and of course you and Bea, too.
But it's one thing to say you don't care about the bunking arrangements and another to actually live that way. We don't want you to leave but we don't want you to regret staying, either.
And there's another thing:
Thank you.
And I hope you know I'd never have - I mean to say, I never thought I had a chance, anyway, but I never would have forgiven myself if I'd let my feelings come between you two.
I'd just said to him last night, I wish we could all be a proper family. Him and me and Harry and even Hermione and Terry and of course you and Bea, too.
But it's one thing to say you don't care about the bunking arrangements and another to actually live that way. We don't want you to leave but we don't want you to regret staying, either.
And there's another thing:
Thank you.
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Date: 2011-11-23 07:42 pm (UTC)I'm not running off, you know. Bea and I are staying right here. And we're going to keep working out how to be a family. That hasn't changed.
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Date: 2011-11-25 03:27 am (UTC)What was I trying to say. You. And Bea. You're important. You're ... pack. That probably makes no sense. It's easier being Padfoot sometimes. I know you think I make a better dog than
personnanny, anyway.But the thing is, Padfoot sometimes sees things much more clearly than I can when I'm completely human-formed. Less ambiguity, if that makes sense. That's why I was him most of the day. Clears my head.
And this place. No, it wouldn't be right without you and Bea here in it, making it work. I wasn't - I didn't mean it like you might do a runner or anything. I meant ... I meant that there was no question in my mind that you'd be a part of whatever happens next, whereas the others, I dunno if that's just a dream or not. But you're already here, and of course you'll continue to be, regardless of whether Harry or anyone else eventually moves in to join our family or not. Or I hope you would be, at least.
Only, like I said - no, forget what I said. I'm a prat.